Due Date: March 27, 2014. 30 Weeks to go!
Weight Gain: -3 lbs, down another 1/2 lb
Symptoms: Last week was ROUGH, which was expected since 9 weeks is usually the height of nausea & vomiting for me. The nausea was intense and relentless and the evenings were the most brutal. But mornings were a nonstop heave show, too. Every basic morning task (get kids food, dishes, get cats' food - which involves mixing canned food with water - BLEGH) was interrupted by a dash to the bathroom. Four weeks ago I was dreading the thought of the nausea building up to this point, but here I am and I made it. Please, please, please let this be the top of the moiuntain so I can begin the descent. The nausea is getting very old for everyone and Raj and I are bickering a lot more. Resentment is building on both sides and my catch phrase of "See you in October!" is not so funny anymore. But we got through this before and we will get through it again. However, right now...it's just not the most fun of times. I will say that to zofran is definitely minimizing actual vomiting. So that's something.
What's different this time: As much as I detest how sick I feel, I still feel like I'm in a better place with it overall. There have been no tears or breakdowns over how crappy I feel or how everything is in shambles. I mean, clearly I'm still very whiny about it, but this round of nausea doesn't feel as out of control. I'm able to rationalize it better and just think "Well, this sucks!" and then I can redirect my thougths to the fact that I will get an awesome kid out of the deal. Like I can look at the kids and remember distinctly how nausous I was with each of them and then think that without a doubt, it's worth it.
I'm thankful for: Hats off to my mother-in-law for her tremendous help this month. She has gone above and beyond with near daily help and chores and making sure I got plenty of rest. They are leaving in a couple days to return to Florida and I need to come up with a meaningful gift to say THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for helping me/us through this time. I'm also still so grateful for the timing of this (sort of surprise) pregnancy. Being sickest this month was really ideal given the abundance of help that I would never have had otherwise. Oh, and God bless the internet. I have spent so much time online this month because distraction is huge. I have been reading blogs and ridiculous pregnancy message boards and watching tons of HGTV. I've even been going crazy on Pinterest which is such a nice way to feel pseudo-productive. A special shout out to Julia (My Life in Transition), whose blog archives provided hours of fun distraction for me. I also found comfort in re-reading Erin's (It's All Happening) pregnancy updates and Amy's (blue jean Amy) bumpdates as they were fellow nausea-sufferers.
Cravings/Aversions: While aversions-to-all remains the name of the game, I am finding moments where I can almost see the glimmer of a craving on the horizon. Like I will have a sense that somewhere very deep down I am hungry but when I try to identify what that something might be my aversion side shuts down that thinking STAT and has me dry heave a couple times as punishment. But I hope this means that this is the start of the tides turning.
Sleep: Resumed better sleep - hooray! I'm very surprised to find that sleeping on my stomach is already uncomfortable. I'm not showing much, if at all, but my uterus is definitely making itself known when I lay on it. Weird. I guess I'm really pregnant?
I miss: I find myself missing the ritual of coffee in the mornings. Plus many other things, but that one was notable this week. And for the record I will TOTALLY resume my one cup a day (maaaaybe two) habit as soon as I am able.
I am looking forward to: I am really looking forward to being past the first trimester and in a place where I can regularly feel the baby and have that reassurance that all is well. I look forward to how good food will taste once I have an appetite. I'm also excited for fall and doing fall activities. Pinterest has me thinking I'm going to decorate with wreaths and mums and stalks of wheat but I'm sure that's just a silly dream :)
Best moment this week: Hmmmm....not the most fun of weeks. I think the best moment(s) would involve those times that the kids were being extra cute and sweet and I was overcome with how great it is going to be to have one more amazing kid in my life.
I'm stressing about: I am worried about keeping my nausea under control at the kids' first gymnastics class next week. Bella will be on her own with her class but Oliver's class is mommy & me. At least it is later in the morning, which is generally my least gaggy time of day.
Milestones: Like Ingrid at This dreamcrossed twilight has mentioned, any week divisible by 5 feels like a milestone. I'm 25% done with pregnancy!!!! Also: I had my first public dry heave incident for this pregnancy. Raj and the kids were inside Chipotle and I had walked to Noodles & Company next door to see if there was something tolerable on the menu. A quick scan of the menu told me that it was all horrifying and then I saw "truffled mac & cheese" and immediately had to run away to puke. (Yes, I am that delicate of a flower these days.) Raj had the keys to the car so I ended up trying to hide as best I could behind the car. Thankfully it was a false alarm and I don't *think* anyone noticed. If they did...maybe they thought I was drunk. Not that that is better.
Movement: Okay, now this is going to sound very fishy and I said the same thing at the same bumpdate last time, but I swear I felt movement a couple times. Little fluttery baby movement.
It's a...: Surprise Baby
Diet: Same as last week: bland, sad, and lacking in nutrition. Cereal was my dinner pretty much every night because it was all I could handle. And I hadn't bought cereal in over a year because we don't do a ton of processed food. But right now my diet is ALLLLL processed food - cereal, pudding cups, granola bars, freaky Dinty Moore Beef Stew... This time around, however, I have no guilt or bad feelings over how poorly I'm eating. I shrug my shoulders because this is just how it is right now and kiddo will turn out A-OK. I would also like to note that I can't really do fast food this pregnancy as a last resort either. I ate Arby's with Bella and McDonald's with Oliver but either one is pretty gross right now. (And again, fast food is not my non-pregnant norm at all.) However, a baked potato from Wendy's did work out well and I might try that again soon.
Weekly Goal: I met my goal of getting some back-to-school clothes, but still need to take Bella out to get shoes. So that can be my goal for this week. Oh, how pathetic I am right now.
Belly Pic:Maybe the teensiest pooch happening? I always have a belly, especially when I'm eating dairy & gluten but this seems less bloat-y and maybe more baby.